Kelsey here. This is my first ever blog post! How exciting is this?! :) I can't wait to dive in and get all dirty with ya ;) haha in the best of way. So let me begin by stating, my name is Kelsey Treat. I am a student at Oral Roberts University. I love God, love people and want to change the world for the better. I am 20 years old and will be joining either the CSU track, soccer, or cheer team next fall! :) I am very excited about this move.
Recently, I haven't been happy. (Guys, if you are reading this and don't care what I have to say.. just leave.) lol I truly mean it. I haven't been happy and I can attribute it to one thing. Facebook. You ask, how can one thing cause so much drama in your life?? Well, it does. Lol No need to explain.. can you take my word or no?
So, I guess you can say I live a pretty lucky life. Actually, I live an over the top life. I have amazing grandparents, amazing parents, cousins who I love with my whole heart, a sister and two brothers who I am protective over and two beautiful dogs named Raegan and Star. Well, the past two years haven't been the greatest or proudest moments in my life. I just recently came to the conclusion that facebook was a lot of my problem. And it was. What an evil thing that facebook is. Anyway, I'll go more I depth later. I have been given an amazing life and I don't want to through it away. I want to be grateful. I want to live in the moment. I want to see the grace of God. I want to go and accomplish so much. But what I found difficult was that I was getting in the way. I was getting in the way of myself and I was the one who was keeping me from attaining my dreams. Anyway, I don't want to be all sentimental with you I want to be real. So I'm sorry if as I am writing this that some things either sound, blunt, obvious, not enough, or bleh. Lol what matters is that it makes sense to me and it helps me get stronger every time I jot down my thoughts. So anyway :) back to the point. I have repeatedly told you know that I attribute some of my failures to facebook.
Let me explain:
Just recently I wrote a letter to a friend of mine who I grew up with, well did cheer with and I'll copy and paste it below after I am through with this statement. In the letter I wrote, "Nothings permanent. You have to have something to accomplish, and not drift in the abyss." Here is the letter:
Hey Cassidy! J
How are you?? I just wanted to write you a letter because
you were on might heart and it seems that we are in the same boat.. SORTA
KINDA! J
I hope you take what I have to say to heart and listen thoroughly. If not,
share this with someone who might need it! Lets get a chain reaction.
Well, to start off. I haven’t slept well at all. TO be
honest, the past couple years of my life have SUCKED. And I would go about my
day having all sorts of thoughts running through my mind and I would sit back
and think what the hell is the matter with me?! I wasn’t always like this.. or
was I? The sad truth was, was that everything from my past crept up on me. My
upbringing was a bit different from most. It wasn’t anything terrible by any
stretch of the imagination. My parents were kind to me, I was involved in school,
I made good grades.. well I could have made better. But I was living a fantasy.
I was so caught up in the moment and iwith everything happening. It was like it
was all a show. And why would I want
to ruin that.. something so precious. Well here’s the truth. The cold hard
reality. And actually, once you grasp it for yourself, you think life through a
whole lot better. Let me start by saying I have no regrets. None about high
school. They were a blast!! I wouldn’t trade it for the world. But on the other
hand, where I think you and I are both slipping up in, is that we were so used
to our high school show our high school atmosphere that you kinda feel lost in
this big old world of college and wonder, what am I doing here?! Well let me
help a girlfriend because my mind has been going on nonstop about this and I
want to get it fixed!! I’ve been thinking a lot. About myself. Looking through
old facebook pics and such. And that’s where it hits home. Because I think our
genereation got cheated and sucked into the hipe of facebook that our glory was
all squeezed and compressed into that screen! I want you to know, that you are
valueable, you have something to say, something to bring. You don’t have to
feel the way you do! There is a way out! And I think I Just figured it out.
This at least has helped me out so far.
#1. I was thinking about this the other day and just this
night.. I have two facebooks. My last
one is the most recent and newest one I was. And my old one is the one from
high school. I still use both OO. Lol but with that in mind, I was looking
through some pics from my old one and kinda thinking about thinkgs. I was
thinking about how I had let myself live just in those moments of high school
and once it ended it was like as if I floated off into an abyss. A commoner. I
was afraid. I had SO much fun in high school… what was next for me?! OO As I
have meandered these past 1yr and a half having a very diffcult time focusing
on just one thing, I atriubte my failure to FB. I think it goes without saying
that I spent way to much time on here! I spent al my energy and time thinking
about other people. Being on facebook.
So.. I had to come up with a solution.
#2. I have to be accomplishing something. I will go to CSU
next fall. I will perform track soccer cheer anything. I will accomplish
something! J
Don’t drift into the abyss.” >>This was the note I made myself. And I
dated it - 1/24/2014
We have to shift our minds onto ourself. And I know that’s a
hard thing to grasp, and I am still clintching to the idea for some reason. But
what I mean is you have to get off facebook. Its not good. It isn’t healthy.
And its wasting valuebable precious time! Get a good job, study hard, make good
money, be a lady, strive for success, marry a good, be something worth talking
about! Don’t drift into the abyss. I know it seems overwheleming. But I want to
help you while I can and save you from my torment. I have been dealing with
this for two years now and I’ve called it quits! Simple as that. I am not going
to invest my life into facebook the way I have. It drains me. Do something that excites you! Be with people
you love! Who you can grow with! <3
Nothing is ever permanent. Just remember that.
I think as you get off facebook slowly and other things you’ll
get to realizing a whole lof of what I am saying. It feels great!<3 I wish you
all the best girl and I hope you are doing well. <3 xoxo
Kelsey Treat
Now I am not trying to be a narcissistic when I write this, or come off that way but truly, we have to take care of ourselves. And I don't mean it in a grudgingliy bitchy way, but we have to look after ourself. We can't allow little things shake us up or get in our way. We have to have a strong mind. And if attaining that strong mind is reading the bible, reading any type of book, calling a friend up, anything, then do it! Stay fresh! BUT BE REAL.
In that letter to Cassidy I wrote it very touchingly as to hopefully relate to her. I don't know of everything that is happening with her but I hope it helps. It healed me in the process. Eve now, I am feeling better. Anywho, I don't want to sound all legalistic, or head in that direction but I truly want to thank you for your time of reading this and just kind of give you a background of where I am coming from. It's not everything but it's something. And that something has given me a greater impact already that I think you know what direction I am heading with this. I want to strive to be a better person, and by being a better person, that means getting off facebook then by golly I am off! :) Anyway, better get some shut eye. Sorry if this all seems a bit intense. But these past few years haven't been good for me and I am starting a roll again! Lets do this!
XOXO
